Life after anorexia. Please, please read and help!?
Hi everyone. A few months ago, I began recovery from anorexia. Once I got my calories up to 2,500, I began gaining weight rapidly. I gained nearly 20 pounds in 5-6 weeks by consuming 2,500-2,700 calories each day. When I got to about 100 pounds, I stopped trying to gain. By the way, I am 20 and am 5’4″. I do understand that is still considered underweight for my height, but I have never weighed much more than 100, if even that much, in my life, so I am very scared and uncomfortable with gaining more. When I first started maintenance, I got to 1,800 calories. With that, I was also running 20-25 minutes a day, doing ab exercises, and Pilates daily. I seemed to be maintaining with that amount of calories and that exercise routine for 2 weeks or so, but then I injured my ankle and have had to stop running until it completely heals. I got nervous to continue eating 1,800 calories, so I dropped my calories to 1,600. I go to the gym 6-7 days a week to use the elliptical for 20-25 minutes and the stationary bike for 5-10 minutes. I still do my ab exercises daily, sometimes twice a day, and I do Pilates everyday and sometime even Yoga, too. I haven’t weighed myself in almost 3 weeks because I am nervous to. I have always had really bad body image issues, and even though I have been skinny my whole life, I have never been able to see it. Everyone tells me I am, but when I look down at my body or see myself in the mirror, I see someone who is fat. I was just wondering if by eating 1,600 calories and with the exercise that I do, is it likely that I have gained weight or will gain? I know the easy answer is just to weigh myself, but I am nervous to do that because if I see a bigger number, I may relapse and want to restrict again. Thank you very much for listening and hopefully for the advice.=)
